at this moment suddenly feel like blogging.
the only way i can express without talking..
fuck! sometimes i fucking wonder whats wrong with me!
what do i want?! cant make up.
really no mood do anything, study or friendship relationship i really am jzt very very tired.....
i know there are friends for me willing to lend me a shoulder
but when im sad i really jzt prefer to keep quiet and suffer myself
i dont want others to worry about me. get it?..
i wil fix myself. or maybe i will stay jzt lk this. i really dont know?
now i just feel that i dont mean a thing to anyone, i jzt feel so dam helpless, useless for people to throw around.
i really dont get it sometimes why do all this happen to me.
sometimes i tell myself why me why me? but fuck! WHY NOT ME?!
i am really just too used to all the suffering n pain.
just say all you want. i know the imrpession i have on you all is slut bitch flirt
i tell myself, dont care. dont care. but i really cant just dont care.
it stills affect me a way or two.
if i am really jzt like tt to you guys? just how much do you know about me to judge me like this?
you know nothing... i admit i feel dam hurt. but wad can i do?
i dont understand. some people dont like others backstabbing them, gossiping, talking behind their back.
but have they even thought about how others feel when they do tt?
No, all is about themselves themselves themselves. so self- absorbed.
i really jzt have too much to think about i am just rly tired.

jzt wanna thank nonie n katie for being there for me always.
am trying to think positive k? but i really cant right now..
give me time.

p;s/sorry if i hurt anyone by writing this.